Over this weekend I found myself asking the question of where Jesus was but I couldn't see him anywhere. I felt such a void of his presence in my surroundings. At church they talked about Jesus a lot but it felt like a celebrity fan club meeting full of people that know all about someone but don't actually know them. The pastor talked about the philosophy of who Jesus claimed to be and invited people to pray a prayer of invitation (whatever that means) and I walked away wondering what the point of the meeting was if Jesus wasn't evident there.
It is very possible that he was evident and I just didn't have the eyes to see. Either way it bothered me. Today I was still feeling down about it and i found myself in a christian bookstore. I typically try to avoid such places. I think it is because every time I step into them I picture Jesus storming in with his homemade whip tossing the tables of cheaply made plastic trinkets with his name on them. But today I found a book that said my year of living like Jesus where the author tried to figure out what it would mean to literally follow in Jesus' footsteps. Look like him and talk like him etc. what he found out was Jesus was Jewish and living like an ancient Jew affects every aspect of life...what you eat what you wear and how you work are all affected by a strict law.
I've spent years separating myself from religiosity as I don't just want to go through the motions of a holy life. I genuinely want to be more like Jesus. But I couldn't help but think about the fact that following Jesus should impact how i eat, what i dress myself with and what my days look like.
Every day I research youth culture news and I am often overwhelmed with the desperate feeling of hopelessness. Death, gangs, abuse, hatred, violence, crime, gossip, pressure, disconnection, sexual attitudes, self injury, suicide, health, to name a FEW. What these kids need is a revolution not more answers. They know its not right to the things they do but it simply is.
I don't want to go anywhere without Jesus and I certainly don't want to take others with me. But I would like to follow him so closely that it impacts what I do in all those mundane areas of my life and starts a revolution in me and in the teens I work with.
Jesus where are you? Jesus WHO are you?
Langley Area Director
Greater Vancouver YFC / Youth Unlimited
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